April 23, 2013 Past experience I forgot to share

Today was such an amazing, spiritual day. I was a little overwhelmed when I woke up this morning. It was my last day with all my Relief Society girls and I didn't think it would be as hard as it was. Over the last little while thinking back on the year, I have felt really discouraged and have kept feeling like I didn't do a very good job and that I could've done a lot more as Relief Society President. Our meetings this morning are what started off the day really good. I was able to work with such an amazing Bishopric and other amazing leaders that truly blessed my life immensely this year.  I always learned so much from our meetings and from the other people I worked with. Sacrament meeting was all about conference. One of the girls, talks wouldn't pull up on her laptop so she had to do it from memory. I was really impressed because I would be a wreck if that was me. She talked about obedience and how you can't just follow one commandment that you have to follow all of them to be able to receive full blessings. She likened it to exercise and how that if we are to only exercise our left leg then only our left leg would be strong and so we need to exercise everywhere to keep us completely strong. I thought it was a good way to relate it.
During Sunday School we learned about temples and the importance of temple attendance. Relief Society was combined today and my wonderful secretary, Kylee gave a lesson on peace. It really was such a great lesson and much needed. As I looked around during the lesson at all my girls, an overwhelming feeling of love came over me for each of the girls. I looked at them and felt such a strong conviction that they were loved and so was I and that Heavenly Father knew each one of us. That was such a powerful experience. We went through each of the presidency members at the end and we bore our testimonies, I felt the spirit so strong and am so grateful for the opportunity I had to be able to be apart of the Relief Society presidency and work with such great people.
Later on I went to a Missionary fireside, where three converts to the church spoke. It just amazes me those people who don't grow up in the church and then completely change their ways and accept the church! It is such a great testimony builder to me to be able to hear conversion stories. After that I went to ward prayer, where it was by far the most spiritual one I have ever been to. It was kind of sad that this was the last time that I would be able to see some of these people but it was just cool to see everyone and how we have came together over the past year. At the very end we sang, "A Child's Prayer", boys and girls separated and wow... It was incredible. The power of music and the spirit it brings is so amazing!
I am so grateful for the gospel and for the oppurtunity it gives me to be able to learn and grow and become a better person. I am so grateful that I was raised by such good parents who taught me the gospel and how to be the best I can be. I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and that I was put in this ward, with certain people for a reason. I know that he knew exactly what I needed this year and I am so grateful for that. I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ guide this church and that we aren't in charge. He knows exactly what he is doing and I know that everything happens for a reason. I am so grateful for Sundays to be able to reflect on what I can do better and to be revived for the next week!

2 years ago....

This is a post mostly just for me. I have had a horrible week. Two years ago this week, we were together with my whole family, every single one of us. We had spent an amazing weekend at a BYU football game and then we randomly decided to go to a basketball game after. It was a blast and I would do anything to have that moment back. Then came Thanksgiving and we went to my Grandma and Grandpa Figgins. After the events with the Figgins we ended up going to the Jensen side and spending time with them. Nothing can take away those moments that we had together as one with all our loved ones. Dev playing with the little kids and just laughing, I look back and it was like heaven on earth with those times we had. I ended up going to my first "Black Friday" that night with Alison and Angela. It was so much fun and I got Dev and Caleb a game for the Nintendo. They played it together for hours. Saturday came and it was the huge BYU vs Utah game. We had a huge party and ate lots of food. Devin had invited Ashlyn and he was so cute with her the whole time. It was cool to see how he treated her. After the game is when my life changed forever.
I have went through this week not being able to control  my feelings. Sometimes all I can do is think about it and want to cry and cry. I had a great time with my family on Thanksgiving and Taylor's family throughout the week. But I have had a really hard time letting myself let go of the accident and allow myself to be happy, to remember all the good times. It breaks my heart. I don't want people to remember me as being grumpy and that is how I feel right now. I'll I want is to remember the good times and not anything about the accident. Sometimes I don't feel like I can talk about it because all I can do is cry when I think or talk about it.
I think a lot about what would be happening now. Would me and Dev be attending Utah State together? Would we be in the same ward? Would he put in his mission papers now because of the age change? What would he think of Taylor? Who would he be dating? I would hope we would've done a lot together and that he would want to spend time with me. I look back and regret not being nicer and doing more with my family during my High School years. It breaks my heart, but also makes me want to be better and is definitely something I am constantly trying to work on. 
Sometimes it is so hard to know what you are supposed to get out of trials like this. I am just so grateful for the knowledge that I have of the gospel. I am thankful for forever families and to at least know that one day we CAN and WILL be all together again. I am so thankful for priesthood blessings. I am thankful for my dad and Taylor who are worthy priesthood holders that can give me blessings of comfort during times like these. I hope and pray that one day I will be able to look back on this and will have learned something. That I can teach my children what I have learned and that they will be able to know all about their Uncle Dev.
I know that everything will be 'OK' with time and I know that I will be just fine. It will just take awhile to heal. But all will be well!

Day 9, 10, & 11

Day 9: I am thankful for the snow! I love the holiday season and it makes it all the better when their is snow!

Day 10: Today I am thankful for a wonderful home. I am thankful for the fireplace that I can lay by when I go home and that it is so relaxing.

Day 11: I am so grateful for Sunday! I am grateful for Kelli and the wonderful talk that she gave today on gratitude. She is such a great roommate and friend! I am also thankful for being able to spend Sunday afternoons with Taylor. It is the best! I am grateful that he watched The Notebook with me tonight! We have been dating for 10 months today! Pretty crazy! It's been fun!

Day 6, 7, & 8

Day 6: Today I was grateful that the elections were over. I am grateful that I live in America and that we are free to do what we want... pretty much. I am also grateful for the knowledge of the gospel and the comfort it brings during scary times.

Day 7: I am so grateful for volleyball! I love it and loved that I was able to go play it for a couple hours with my fun ward. I am also grateful that I am healthy enough to go play. I am grateful that it helps me relieve my stress and also is a good time.
I am also grateful for small acts of service. I love being able to go through out my day and watch what others do for each other. It makes me happy and makes me want to be better!

Day 8:  I am thankful for my roommates! I love that we can go do stuff together and are just so chill around each other. I am grateful that I can talk to them about anything and I can just be myself! They are great. I am also grateful for the great examples my sisters are. I love hearing that they go to the temple and that they have good friends that go with them! They are amazing!

Some of the things I have done over the past little while...
Last weekend I went home to babysit my siblings while my parents were in Hawaii. Friday, I made Fried Rice and Chicken and everyone had friends over. Taylor came over and we just kind of chilled. We went and got Leyla a little Mickey stuffed animal because she broke her wrist. It was so cute to see her with it. When we got home we watched some basketball and that was about all for Friday.
Saturday, Sierra and Amelia  had their Girls' Choice dance so they went on their date for that and me, Caleb and Jacob went to Caleb's basketball game and then to the Aggie football game with Taylor and his mom. After the game, Teresa took us to Wingers to eat. It was a lot of fun. Me and the boys drove home and just relaxed the rest of the night. It was fun to spend time with them. I get to go back tomorrow because the parents are still gone... Lucky them! But I am excited to go back, it is always nice to be home.

School is slowly winding down and I am actually not going to be coming back to Utah State next semester. Surprise, Surprise.... I changed what I am doing again BUT... I think this is my final choice. I am going to attend Bridgerland starting in January and do Dental Assisting and then apply for the Dental Hygiene program most likely at Weber. I feel like this will be a good career for me to go into and it will be a good 'mom' job if I have to work someday. I am excited for what is coming up it should be a good, final decision!

Day 5

Today I am thankful that my siblings were able to come to Logan to have FHE with me! We went to Pizza Pie Cafe and Bowling. It was so much fun. I am also grateful that my parents were able to go to Hawaii, they are amazing parents and totally deserve it. I am grateful that Taylor brought me his calculator (for my chem test) this morning since I forgot last night at his house. I am thankful that I was able to pass my CPR class today so that I can go to Bridgerland to become a Dental Assistant and then apply to be a Dental Hygienist.

Day 4!

I am so grateful for Sundays. I am thankful to be able to go to church and partake of the sacrament each week. I am thankful that it is a relaxing day. I am thankful that I was able to go spend time with Taylor's family and be able to get a lot done. I am so grateful for the gospel and for the blessings and comfort it brings into my life. I am grateful for my calling and the miracles I get to see and the challenge it brings. I am thankful that it has helped strengthen my testimony and help me be a better person!

Gratitude November Day 1,2,3

Day 1
Thursday I was grateful for such a great job. I am grateful for the great patients I work with and all my coworkers. I am grateful I was able to find a job I like and that will help cover my living fees! I am grateful that it works so well with my school schedule also.

Day 2
Friday I was grateful for my siblings. My parents are gone for the next little while and I was able to come home and babysit for the weekend. I am so grateful for who they are becoming and for the example they are to me. I am grateful that they are so forgiving when I don't have very much patience and that they are such good kids. I love them so much!

Day 3
Today I am grateful for Taylor. He has been so patient with me the last couple days when I have been having a rough time and getting stressed too easily. I am grateful that he is always there to tell me it is going to be ok and that I just need to relax... I am grateful for his family also and for how amazing they are to me. I love him and am thankful for all he does for me!