I'll Be What You Want Me to Be...

Today I went to my cousin Colton's Homecoming. He did such an amazing job and was such a great missionary. He talked a lot about representing Christ's name and a phrase from D&C 84:85 which says, 'Treasure up in your minds continually the words of life." As he was sharing different experiences and his testimony, it was a huge strength to me. It made me think a lot about what I have faith in and how I am representing Christ's name. I had the desire to be better and to want to teach others the gospel. I am so grateful for Colt's example to serve a mission and for his strong testimony. The closing song was I'll Go Where You Want Me to Go. It touched me immensely. I still am worried about my future and what is going to happen, but as I listened to that song there were many phrases that touched me and that were answers to my prayers. "So trusting my all to thy tender care, and knowing though lovest me, I'll do thy will with a heart sincere, I'll be what you want me to be." I know that as long as I am trusting in the Lord that he will lead and guide me in the direction that I am supposed to go in life. I know that he knows what is best for me and will never let me down. My goal is to turn myself over to him and listen to the spirit on what I am supposed to be doing... and maybe just let things go as they come not stress so much!

Today has been 18 months since Devin has passed away. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I have definitely learned a lot over the passed year and a half. I am so grateful for my family and their great love and examples they have been for me. I am grateful for good friends that have helped me through this time. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father for being there to listen to me when I felt like I didn't want to burden anyone else. I have gained a stronger testimony through this experience. I am so grateful for the memories I have with Dev. From going to London to car rides to school, to feeding sheep. I love that I still have those memories and can remember him. I can't wait for the day til I see him again.  I love you Dev! Families are Forever!

Where does all the time go?!?

I can't believe how fast time has went by. My freshman year is COMPLETE! I felt like this semester went way well. I am happy with how everything is going.

I am still dating Taylor! It has been fun to get to know him even more. We have spent a lot of time with each others families and it has been a lot of great. He has such a cute, nice family.  He is studying to take the GRE at the end of May. He has been studying A TON... at least it seems like it to me! I hope he does well so he can apply for Grad school for next Fall.We went to the Jazz Game with my family a couple weeks ago. It was so much fun! We went to Tucanos for dinner with my family and then got to the Jazz game a little early and got a Jazz shirt. It was such a fun time spending time with him and my family! After the game Taylor helped me move in some of my stuff into my new apartment!

The day after the game was my sisters' 16th Birthday! I can't believe they are growing up so fast! They are both so unique but I love them so much. I got them a bunch of things needed for when you turn 16, gum, perfume, lotion, lip gloss, nail polish, a gift card to eat, and just random stuff like that. Taylor got them Utah State shirts and signed pictures of Riley Nielsen! They loved it! Sierra said, "Best Present Ever!" It was so nice of him to get something for them. We went and played basketball later on that night and just chilled with the fam. It was great. I am so grateful for Sierra and Amelia's examples to me. I am so grateful for Sierra's fun, bubbly personality and how she cares so much about everyone. I am grateful for Amelia and her determination in everything she does, I love how she sticks to what she know. I love you both!

Sierra and Amelia had there first date\dance on Saturday. They asked me to help them with their hair and makeup. I was so excited. I have missed being able to do their hair for school and all that jazz! They got home around 4:30 from their day date at Toad's and we quickly started getting them ready! They both wanted their hair curly. They both ended up looking so beautiful. Amelia went with Brady McCann and Sierra went with Shawn Johnson. I think they had a lot of fun!

Thanks so much for letting me help! I love you both! :)

The last couple weeks have been super busy! I started my job and picked up quite a few more hours -then what I started with. I work everyday, MWF I work 11-7 and TH I work 7-11. Then I Tuesdays I have my Anatomy class from 5:15-7:15 and on Thursdays I have it from 5:15-9:30! It makes for a pretty long day. But Anatomy is so hard. I love learning the stuff but it just seems to be SO much information.
I was thinking  the other day where the heck does all the time go? I remember when I turned 16 and everything seemed pretty easy going and now I am starting my Sophomore year in college and I feel like I am getting so old... oh well, I guess that is just how life goes. Take it as it comes!