"I Feel My Savior's Love"

Wow, it is amazing what a Sunday can do for you! I am constantly making choices in my life and trying to find an answer. Sunday's are always a great day to find answers and get the help I need. Today during Relief Society it was the Teaching for our Times. Abbie Black (from my ward) gave the lesson on a talk that Neil L. Anderson gave on "What Think Christ of me?" (April 2012 Conference) It was so good and something I needed to hear. She talked a lot about that if we are doing what we are supposed to and what we think Christ would want us to do, we will be loved by other people. Simple as that... Right? She continued on asking us when were times in our lives that we have felt the love of the Savior. That has been something on my mind now. I went to a fireside tonight and it was basically all music, but it was amazing. It was at the Tabernacle as I looked around and I could see young couples with a baby, or a cute girl with a disability that kept giving her sister hugs or an elderly couple just sitting quietly, that I felt the Savior's love for me and everyone around me. I think it isn't always the big things that can have such a big effect on a person. It is by those small and simple things. I know that for me, it is a simple text, a letter, a hug, someone doing my dishes or even just a simple smile that makes me feel loved and appreciated.
I was thinking back on times in my life where I have felt the Savior's love and one of the biggest times in my life was the day my brother Dev passed away. I remember being stuck in the car and praying out with full out desire that he would be fine. That he would be ok and that I wouldn't have to worry about him. I remember not wanting anyone to help me and just to help him. I remember sitting in the ambulance still just praying that everything would be ok. It wasn't until I was getting my MRI, that a peaceful feeling came over me, "he is ok, he's in my hands". It wasn't the way that I thought it would go, I never imagined this happening to someone so close to me. My family came in and the news broke out. It was the worst feeling I have ever felt in my life. I told them that Families are Forever and how sorry I was. At that moment, I wanted to change everything that just happened not for just me but for my family. I wanted to take away the pain and sorrow that they were feeling. I look back now and that is where my testimony of the Atonement grew. I felt how the Savior felt and was so grateful for the Savior and for him atoning for the pain and sorrow I felt at that moment. I felt the Savior's love as my family and some of my extended family sat in a room in the hospital and received blessings. It was amazing the feeling that was in there. I continue through this trial to feel my Savior's love. It is on my weakest days, I can feel angels holding me up and helping me continue on. It is through the power of the Savior's love that I have been able to stay strong and keep moving forward day to day.
As I listen to church music especially the song, "Come Thou Fount", I always feel my Savior's love for me. It is amazing the spirit that music brings. I love the feeling I get when my sister Sierra sings. She is an incredible singer.
I just think sometimes it is a huge eye opener when you step back and see all that the Savior has done for you. It is an overwhelming feeling. I am so grateful for my testimony of Jesus Christ. I know that he suffered for all my sins, sorrows, weaknesses and pains. I know that Heavenly Father knows me personally. He knows when I am going through a hard time and when I need is help. I know that his hand is in all things and he only wants what is best for me. I know that without Christ my family would never be able to unite and live eternally together.  I am so grateful for the knowledge that I have and for the Sabbath day, where I can relax and contemplate everything that is going on in my life. I am so grateful  for the gospel and for an amazing family that raised me in the church.

College and My wonderful Family!

I officially know what I am going to go into! I am going into Physical Therapy! I am so excited. I started going to Physical Therapy for my back about three weeks ago and decided to ask about volunteering. They told me I could come in at any time. I was really way excited and then they told me that they were hiring soon. I went to volunteer and immediatly fell in love with it. I loved working with the people and not having to sit in a desk all day! The next time I went to volunteer, I got offered a job. I am going to work full time over the summer and live in Logan. I am so excited! I am going to take an Anatomy class at night from the Brigham City Campus. I think it will be good to just focus on that class and working.

It's crazy how things change so quickly. I am almost officially done with my first year of college! It is insane, it has gone by so dang fast. I have loved every little thing about college... or just about. I have loved living on my own, meeting new people, grocery shopping, finding meals to cook for one person, staying up late, laughing with my roommates over dumb stuff, studying til I can't study any more, living so close to the temple, learning how much my parents have always done for me, having my family so close and just learning more about myself while I have been on my own. College is such a different world but I love the new experience!

I have to say I absolutely just love my family. I love going and visiting them, I love getting calls from them or texts. I love when they help me bring in my stuff from my car or take stuff to it when I am about to leave. I love hearing what they are doing with their lives. They are simply amazing. I love how outgoing Sierra is and how she texts me randomly all the time and asks me what I am doing or how I am doing. I love how she is strong through everything she goes through. I love Amelia and how she is doing so well in school and is pushing herself, I wish I would've been more like that in High School. I love how she sets her mind to things and doesn't back down. I just love Caleb. I love how everytime I go home he always makes me laugh. I love that he has such a fun personality and is always trying to do what he is supposed to. I love that he still tells me that he loves me. It means the world to me! I love Jacob he is the best youngest child. I love that he still gives me hugs all the time when I come home and I love that he is such a comedian. There is never a dull moment with him. I love my dad. I love how he is such a wonderful person. I love that he is the rock of our family. I love his strong testimony and desire to always do what is right. I love that he is a worthy priesthood holder and I can go to him at any time I need. I love that he is so perfect for my mom. I love the patience and love he has for her. I love that he is consistanly trying to be better and help me be better. I love my mom. She is my best friend. I don't know what I would do with out her. She is amazing. I love that she is still kind enough to send me meals and do my laundry... I love all of the times I can call her just to talk. I love her advice and her great example of how I want to be someday. Last of all I Love Dev. I love that whenever I think of him, it motivates me to be a better person. I can't explain in words the strong desire I have to be with my family forever. They mean the world to me. I know one day we can be together again and their is nothing better then that knowledge.